a really bad week

i crashed a car. was going across a junction when a cab came from another direction and smashed against my side.
im glad kris is alright, i was mortified for a sec that i was going to get her killed. my dad is coming back in 2 weeks.
visited amoy street the other day. got a horrible sinking feeling when i passed the junction. there was still smashed glass everywhere, picked up a big piece of twisted metal, couldnt tell if it was from my car or the cab which got its front smashed in.

the morning after the accident, i flipped on the telly to take my mind off what happened. axn or starworld was showing the worlds worst car accidents caught on tape or something with a similarly dispensible title, a car going across a junction got smashed in from the side and flipped over a bridge or something. i guess i have alot to be thankful for.

i realised im not ready to die, im havnt done enough, felt enough , loved enough, been enough. i need to fill in the blanks first.